I’ve been MIA for a while. I didn’t mean to be. I’ve been composing blog posts in my head (and then forgetting what I wanted to say) all week. But it seems like when life gets busy, blogging is what gets neglected. After all, it can be a pretty easy thing to ignore, compared to a pile of laundry, a work deadline or a sink full of dishes.
I’ve also been in a bad head space again lately. I don’t quite know what’s been going on. I’ve been doing a lot of self sabotaging with my eating and I can’t figure out what my trigger is. I talked to my trainer about it yesterday and she suggested that I get off my routine for a week. Stop tracking and measuring my food. Don’t do the workout routines she gave me. Instead, try to make healthy choices and just do what I want for workouts – whether it’s more cardio, yoga or just making up some strength routines.
And the funny thing is, I had been thinking myself that I need a break from tracking. I’ve been doing it for over a year now. As I’m sure most people reading this are aware, it’s a lot of work to measure out and track all the food you eat. Not that I’ve been 100% perfect about it, but even when I haven’t been, the stress of tracking is always there.
So it’s day two of not tracking my food. It’s been a rocky start. My bad head space lead to some poor choices yesterday and with the holiday today, I was just trying not to overindulge too much. It was really weird packing my lunch and snacks for work tomorrow and just kind of throwing in what I wanted, without thinking about ounces or macros. But I am also already feeling some relief, some mental freedom. I guess we’ll see what this week brings. Because boy, did I feel defeated yesterday morning when I was talking to my trainer about how I was feeling.
Have you ever experienced anything like this? Did you find anything that helped?